This year have been the most overwhelming of all - between the stress of work, school, the household and my health things are just not the same. Yet I always find time and energy to thank God for what I have and for what I don't have.
I can't imagine my life differently because everything that's in it is the consequences of an action, the result of something, the answer to a prayer but most importantly - the essence of who I have become. I couldn't be me without the things, the people, the problems, the laughter, the goals and everything else in my life.
However, the changes in my life has not always been positive, or happy, nor easy and most definitely not embraced by those who I love. I have lost friends along the way - and as harsh as it sounds I thank God for that. I have met a few people - some have made a positive impression in my life while others are still a pain in the ass... yet, I'm glad. I can't change anyone's life but mine and even so, there are things, situations and people that I wont be able to avoid; I'm just glad that I am able to deal with each of them,
So without making this a long and sappy Thanksgiving post... I want to thank God for the life I am living now and for:
1. my kids - who are a constant reminder that I am the strongest, smartest, funnier, most beautiful woman in their lives. {{emphasis on most beautiful}}
2. my job - which provides me with a decent salary, benefits, autonomy, stress, laughter, patience, challenges, goals and rewards. {not to mention the awesome discounts on books and merchandise}
3. my school - for helping me get closer to my goals {even thought tuition is high and algebra is kicking my ass}
4. my insulin pump - for the constant reminder that I have to test my glucose, eat better and take my insulin - for doing the job of the real pancreas who decided to give up on me.
5. my Nook Color - for all the reasons a book worm can possibly have & the fact that I can carry over 100 books in my bag!
6. my ipod - for the lovely tunes Ricky Martin, Jay Z, The Fugees, and the others sing into my ears ... not to forget Adele (who put into music the feelings of my achy breaky heart)
7. my planner - for the strength to hold all my plans, dreams, bad poetry, goals, budget and doctor's appointments.
8. my blackberry - for the ability to link me to the entire world and make me available to all even while I have it on silent mode.
9. my Almay mascara - for not telling on me when I cry and say that I got something in my eye, for making my lashes look luscious and my eyes look mysterious!
10. my journals - for allowing me to vent, to rant, to dream, to plan, to love and to hate in pretty orange ink; for holding all my tears and fears and for never ever doubting me!
Of course... thanks for those who always love me no matter what and even for those who will never love me ...no matter what - they are both as important for my inner strength!
